Gratitude in 2013

A personal story about gratitude- While a clairvoyant, I'm also an artist. I was very happy coming out of a successful studio show in the spring and my art was then on its way to Nina's Cafe on Cathedral Hill. The art had hung for about a week at the cafe when I got a call. A woman was interested in buying one of my large ink drawings. I kept trying to find an evening to return her call. I thought about doing it one Sunday night but it was already 8pm so I decided to wait. Oddly, she called me 10 minutes later. As I spoke to her about the image she kept saying that it was for a memorial. As we were talking about framing I asked her if the image would move around, unsure what she meant by a memorial. She paused. Then she shared that this coffee house, Nina's in St Paul is where she met her husband. They married and several years later he became ill all of a sudden and passed away. She'd looked at Nina's for three years to use the memorial money to buy art by which to remember him. I took a deep breath and thanked her for sharing this story and felt honored to be the art that bridges her heaven and earth. A reminder to us all to manifest what we desire. I place a variety of intention around my art, it was clear to me my intention had been heard.

Energy Update "Truth Seekers"

The Truth Seekers happiness relies on inner strength and power established through healthy boundaries, which keep personal power intact. Knowing how and where to place our power is the goal. This story is about gifts, expectations, judgments, disappointment and more! ~Enjoy? My son, lets call him Peter because that's his name. When he was 6 years old asked for an item that was $150 for Christmas. When he didn't get it from the first grandparents, then not from us, he expected, unbeknown to us, that the last stop would for certain yield this gift by Grandma #2. He had a high expectation! He opened his gift and was disappointed! He remarked, “I thought you’d get me something better.” OUCH! This however, is the perfect situation. See Grandma #2 looks for validation through gift giving, for her that's the only point of gift giving and to have you repay her with an equally nice gift. So they both have HIGH EXPECTATIONS. Can you see the law of attraction at work? Peter is showing this Grandma a mirror. Grandma #2 can choose to look in it or to reject Peter by judging him. Knowing her well, at a moment of weakness in Peter’s life she'll remind him about how he rejected her gift to hurt him back. This gives Grandma #2 the right (in her mind) to forever more judge Peter as entitled and rude. However, she is covert and said very little that day, instead attacking me with it three years later. Using it in a lose/lose situation. I asked her to stop judging me and Peter too, (that's how I held my power). Next time I'm going to laugh, I think there is even more power in this option. The major point I’d like to make using this example is this: Grandma #2 has the right to feel poorly when a child says that in her presence. That was rude, what Grandma #2 doesn’t know and can’t unfortunately understand even if shared (because she is only able to draw it back to herself) is that Peter thought when nobody else got him this item, she for certain would. It is purely that she was the last stop that day, “his last chance” that she got this response. It had nothing to do with her gift, only with his expectation. So this holiday, do your best to communicate! Also, remember let go of over thinking what you bought for others. We can’t read minds and can only feel out that we got something that made us happy to give to the other person. That’s what matters! Next week, a sweet story about a situation for which I have gratitude.

Energy Update "Find the Small Quiet Inside"

This week is about "the inside job". Going inside to find the place where peace is established, where quiet reigns. You have a safe haven inside of you. Work from this position this week as you face the contrast of this outside yourself. It seems hard to apply this to our current human experience where regular duties in addition to parties, shopping, baking and business appears to be ruling our days. To shift into this inner world, I feel this can be a touch base within, it can also be a minute of dazing out and finding quiet in this way. It is about living for small bits on the inside, just with you. Listen to you and follow it with a gentle heart right now. A few weeks back I wrote about a woman drinking a coffee and seeing it wasn't from her truth. While I know you understand the concept applied to your own life it is odd to see it in action in the life of another (without judgment of course). This means the veil is slipping away and we can see each other for who we really are. Another scenario I didn't write about, probably because it fits for today's writing is about perception and trusting inner guidance. I walked into a store several weeks back that is new to its location. I had no need to go in there and shut out my "inner voice" and went anyway. When I got about 1/3 of the way into the store with a hand behind me still touching a scarf as I walked by I all of a sudden felt flat and a thought came. It was about if I were to die tomorrow is this what I want to be doing now? How do I want to impact this world and does this achieve it? While it hit me hard, I laughed because this was inner guidance that I could hear and feel, it was startlingly real AND I could see behind my own veil for just a moment! This used to be a way I'd gather inner quiet, to shop a bit, loose myself in it. In that moment I felt saturated with too much, not overwhelmed but like I had eaten too much sugar. A smidgen of remorse and over indulgence. I also had awareness that I was in the wrong place and in this time and space nothing was there for me. Be open to this in your own life as this is the contrast of managing your energy and alignment. Claim that quiet and gain something bigger! This week focus on the small quiet inside of you. The messaging I am getting is this offers a place to recharge you which is divine and goes to your core. Now that's powerful! Have a good week everybody! Amy

Energy Update "Manifestation"

I was at Target on Thanksgiving evening. My husband and I want a replacement TV for our cabin and I shared last spring that we might consider waiting until the deal busters hit at the dawning of holiday shopping offering to "do the duty." Then on Thanksgiving evening I roped my sister and her partner into going with me after stuffing ourselves silly at our mom's house. We arrived 15 minutes into the store being opened and the place was PACKED! Then I searched the store looking for the displaced TV's along the aisle with women's clothing. The TV we wanted was gone, a knowledgeable employee shared that they were already out of these tv's. Another employee approached overhearing our conversation and she shared that her hand held device said there was one in back. "No" the man said, "That’s incorrect." We walked away and grabbed a few good deals on the way. During this experience my heart was expectant. I am a passionate person but when I found this TV out of stock I was felt the same as when I thought there was a chance there was one for us and I moved on without a thought. The three of us are standing in line weaving in and out 8 rows back into the store. (A quick aside, you appealed to this Virgo! Super speedy and organized checkout process Target!) We arrive at the last aisle prior to the checkouts and can see the end of the checkout lanes where people leave. Right there in front of me is the TV I wanted. My sister's partner points it out. I lean forward, responsive to the situation and ask the two employees standing in front of me if this TV belongs to somebody. They look at each other and one says, "Its been abandoned, its up for grabs." I jump up and down and yell, "Merry Christmas to me!!!!" My sister and I are genetic blue prints so she is doing the same thing but stops and grabs the TV and puts it into our shared cart. We laugh and revel in the moment as we move down the last aisle to pay. This is an example about manifestation. I believe in abundance and here it is! I had no expectation of getting this TV. I was expectant, hoping for the best with no attachment to outcome. My inner voice was set on, "I will be able to get a TV for our cabin." This non-attached stance offered me the emotional alignment to ALLOW. I am reminded by my good friend Nina, “things come easily to me.” This example is one of many. It is because of my positioning, not because of luck! It is approaching life in pure emotion and in the case of drawing something you want to you, expectancy is the key. We could say my intention last spring held the energy of my request and my unwavering feelings about the possibility drew it to me. Plus, wouldn't you rather find a TV at the checkout than get it at the place they were stocked? It makes for a more rich experience. A reminder to each of us: expectations and responsibility aren't a part of our truth. Expectancy and responsiveness are our truth. Expectancy can be defined as our experience of excitement for an unknown outcome, defying anxiety, which, is the attachment to outcome. We hope for something good but we let go of attachment to this and just get excited about the possibilities. Successful expectancy is about loosing your inner negative voice and following you in place of believing others when they tell you it’s not possible. Hold the good feelings, your alignment about you and the situation. You are trusting you over an outside source. This also is a good example of how to define spiritually putting you first but I won’t go into that in this post. Responsiveness is also internal. It’s where we have something presented to us and we discern (decide from our heart) how we fit the situation to meet it over doing because we "have/should/could/would". What do you "EXPECT TO SEE" (Expect-ta-cy) in 2014? Don't underestimate what you can manifest. Try it out and join me in making a vision board on January 11th, 2014! For more information about Amy and how she reads visit her website at www.intuitivepathfinder.com

Energy Update Seeing Behind the Veil

Energy Update Seeing behind the veil Something is shifting and I feel it is universal. Personally, I am experiencing a heightened ability to see the apocalypse or “behind the veil”. You may remember me talking about life as an illusion and we play roles for one another to grow and learn. Recently I heard: in order to live fully in the light you must have fully lived in the dark. While I didn’t understand this concept before I did understand its manifestation, which is, people, who are playing the perpetrator, are as close to the divine as everybody. Now I understand they are only going the direction of the dark to understand the contrast so immensely that they then can better understand the light. That said, in my daily life I am being shown situations that are not of truth. I may become like the Long Island Medium and walk over to people and say, “Um, I don’t know if this is okay with you if I share but did you know you are not acting in your truth?” Wouldn’t they love that! I think I could do it. Want to place some bets? Let me give you an example, I was at the grocery store where I saw a woman walking out with a hot beverage she just purchased. She was walking toward me I could sense that this action was not in her truth. WHAT? Where did that come from? Was I judging her? Then I could feel and could see under her veil of illusion. I could feel how she felt inside about the hot beverage and what her perceptions about it were, deep and unseen to her and the surface ones. She was compensating by having that hot beverage. There was no true need but to feel something through the use of the hot beverage. She was compensating, self-enabling. We’ve all done it. However, it was interesting to view it. This to me is dimensionality. We can sense beyond what is evident and that is powerful! In no way am I saying hot beverages are bad. What I am saying is tune in, tune into you! Is this right for you in the moment? Is this what supports your life to thrive and really expose your creativity and who you truly are? The other thing I am saying is like growing up in a tricky home as a child, once we hit a certain age we have to face those hurt parts of us in order to heal and release it. Do it! Feel it, if it becomes to scary, claim it. If you also are seeing this pattern with the veil lifted, keep your footing by regarding the truth in others and respecting them for it. Getting stuck on their misstep doesn’t help them shift, nor does it serve our future because what are we creating in that moment where we are judging somebody? This brings me to a holiday topic....... If we remember that in each moment we are creating our future we need to figure out ways to stay balanced during this busy time of year. Show your preference by doing only the things that feel good to you. Leave the rest. Being quiet over being busy will always create a win for manifestation and living authentically!

Happy Thanksgiving!

I am keeping it simple for this week of Thanksgiving! Have a great week and if you need a reading to work out family bug-a-boos or gain perspective, please connect, I'd love to work with you! -Amy www.intuitivepathfinder.com intuitivepathfinder@gmail.com 612-791-3001

Love & Kindness for oneself

Love and kindness are the words I'm hearing. To my surprise when I went to write the word love I typed the word live instead. Accident? No way! I am the "everything is connected, everything happens for a reason" gal. Lets go see why this happened. A female master has popped in to speak on this topic. She says "Fill your heart with love and kindness for yourself." I can actually feel the energy of this in my heart, its big, soft and warm. To achieve personal love and kindness she recommends living in the moment. When we keep visiting the past and future we are living from perception and it is stronger for our desired alignment (the law of attraction/manifesting what we desire/synchronicity) to live from feeling (the heart doesn't remember the past, it only lives in the present). She holds her arms out showing me the opportunity for expansion when we operate from self-love and kindness. "Fill yourself with this and others will fill with this from you." Relays the master. When I asked her how we achieve this she shares we are to "Expand into it" which, means let it become natural by slowly allowing presence in each day. She says if we do this we will eventually step into this loving space with no effort. To the realists out there I say this, limit your "practice" (yoga, meditation, etc)* to 15 minutes a day to make room to be human. I also say before you do those practices, release your inner negative mind. Write three pages (such as the morning pages from the Artist's way) make a list of the things you need to do and then let it alone. When we keep our practice in our heart vs. with a busy head it is of more benefit. And......the master agrees! *This information about doing a practice for only 15 minutes a day comes to me from Esther Hicks and the late Jerry Hicks and ultimately the master who speaks through Esther, Abraham. Check out their work at Hay House! Have a good week and stay present, while this is not a new concept, the concepts that come to me are timely and perhaps practicing this at this time will help you better flow with the current energy cycle.

Energy Update "Rebound"

Ask and you shall receive! Holy cow! Lets piece it together so we can make use of it and grow........The word for the week is Rebound. .........rebound, what does that mean? to bounce back after traveling through the air and hitting a hard object. WHAT? Let me look a little more......I see a human wrapping their body like a mummy and then allowing it all to fall away and be exposed, anew. Wow, this is a peep show everybody! All silliness aside, it speaks directly to the work many of us have been doing in so many forms; releasing shame and fear. In this case, I feel we are talking about shame. Part of this shame picture is in shedding beliefs. Let me illustrate why. I just presented an art piece to a group of 3rd graders. The artist, a Belgian (1911) was inspired to paint this image because his sister was marrying a man from a place different place (China). Their small Belgian town’s people judged it was wrong to have these two unite; consequently, the townspeople were filled with gossip and judgment. The artist depicted the shame that was flung upon the engaged couple using a local yearly carnival theme with masks (to cover their shame) as a way to hide the truth. Children immediately can see this image is about people judging others. How do they know this? They can feel it. So what’s our rebound? Turn on your feeling again adults! What the children are doing is operating from their feeling (heart) over operating from what they know (mind). Judgment wins when we lack trust in our feelings. "Trust your first instinct" a common proverb in our American culture shows our understanding of this concept. Unwrap your mummy, zombie or whatever a solid metaphor is for you and step into your child eyes. Darren Weissman, a healer along my journey, said, "Amy, see everything through your heart." To do this he suggested I see myself as a pilot in the little plane of my heart and operate from there for making decisions and weighing my perceptions. Operate from your heart at the risk of momentarily being misunderstood. In time this will naturally flesh out what is for you.

A way to Reverence, finding "What is" in life

Today I want to talk about an abstract topic, "What is" and "What isn't" The reason I want to talk about this is when I asked for a word to start my writing the word that came up was Reverence. I went to write about it and everything I wrote led me to the importance of us (humans) always choosing the energetic space of "What is". See when we choose "What is" I've personally found a lot of reverence or deep respect for someone or something. So let me try to explain how to choose "what is" in your life and show you through a few lenses. This is an abstract topic because it is a practice of recognizing "What Is and What Isn't" knowing it takes time but when you really get there, what you achieve is quickly seeing behind the veil of the situation and that is where the reverence comes in to play! LITERALLY PLAY! Ever meet a real vampire? No, probably not. How about a Vampire archetype? (An archetype is a very typical example of certain personality traits) A Vampire is a person who drains your energy by complaining or they try to rope you into their mess so you feel sorry for them. They much of the time approach with a seemingly unsolvable problem and do this purely to get attention with no intention to resolve the issue. They are compensating, living in what isn't and they're likely doing this because they've learned this might be their only value as a means to getting attention. We might call them the "Manipulative Victim". They can't seem to figure out how to make change in their life so they decide to cast their confusion and dissatisfaction outwardly directing it toward other people. Yes, we all have met these people. Maybe at times we've even played this role. I know I have. (That's what self- forgiveness is for!) What I recommend to loose this type of energy from getting near yours is to live in "what is". So what does that mean? Living in "What is" means following what moves you forward, what supports YOU. As a tool you could ask yourself this question in reference to a situation where you're unsure you want to place energy, "Is this what is?" To double check it you may ask the opposite, "Is this what isn't?" When we live in what isn't we are leading our lives with a mask on, we aren't being us. When it comes to something with a lot of intensity or confusion such as death, this "what was" approach can be very powerful. When we actually peel back the layers beyond what our relationship looked like, especially with people who were challenging for us on earth, we can see the real gold. Short bouts of intense emotion may surface when we take this approach. If we allow the feelings to come and encourage them, they layers which peel back will reveal the truth about the good purpose of their being in our life for our growth. I look at it as we can see them for "what indeed was". This allows us a new understanding of them in our lives and gives freedoms to our grief. To learn more about this topic watch for my downloadable manifestation audio. I hope to have this and more offerings by the end of February 2014.

Set Your Everchanging Pace Based on You!

Thank goodness for Daylight Savings this coming weekend! Yipeee! And....it moves us into our theme so very well...... The theme this week is how to operate at "your pace" which is surely at times or often a different pace than those around you. I think the main idea here is relaxing into who you are and if you're doing this in alignment with you, you will for sure be moving at your unique pace. So if we move at our own pace how do we do this among others moving at different paces? We drop judgment and allow discernment "I know this is a good pace for me today" (or now, etc.) accept our pace and let go of anything we can't accomplish while operating at our own pace. This type of alignment will offer you more time as the Universe responds to your action based on the law of attraction. It also will bring you some peace to go at your pace and allow the space and time you need to do things while present, versus pushing or just shutting down. Now how do we deal with others who are setting different paces for us? Hold boundaries, share perspectives about your needs by describing how you work best, today and for this situation. For larger projects look at past experience to set realistic guidelines of how you flow when working in a more in depth way. Leave justifying your use of time out of it when holding boundaries with others. This is a cousin of insanity! Never reason with children or somebody who wants you to do something, just give them a guideline and keep communication open as you need to shift what energy you're giving. Now get out there and give it a go, live at your pace in each moment!

Energy Update Consistency and its Contrast

I am inspired to write about consistency and its contrast inconsistency. My article will show these definitions in action, as an example, not as a direct definition because I am retrieving the information using clairvoyance and this is the format in which it came-I'm going with it! When I impart clairvoyance I see a train running over a track where there is a gap at points and something has to bridge the gap. However, the sensation I feel while looking is not at all like riding on a train. It is instead like a fast up and down motion the type of ride that makes your stomach rise and fall from a pushing and pulling movement. The movements are consistent but the depth at which they rise and fall differ and anticipation of this action is not discernible ahead of the experience. Ride the wave people! So, the message I am picking up ties in with last week's theme. Don't bridge the gap! Do this so that the truth can be seen and faced. Its ok for the train to fall off the track because then it will be noticed and supported. Perhaps better tracks must be built in place of you holding the tracks together to make them appear like they are seamless and there is no problem. I just read an astrological update a few days ago asking us to balance in work and rest. I feel what I've just stated follows this energy pattern. If you stop holding the tracks, what will you make time for in your own life? Is this shift simply you offering for everybody involved to be in balance? There may be a time of discomfort but what we really can focus on is that in time the truth will flesh out if we can let go of holding it all together. Hold your part of the situation with love. Stand in love for the other places and people who need to step up. Know inside you, doing this type of act is an act of love.

Trusting your needs to guide you

As I ask what to write about this week a calm comes over me and the message is about trust. Defining trust I suspect the majority of us tend to think about how we relate to others before thinking about how trust can be defined by us. Lets remove the lens about our trust of another or its contrast, betrayal and look instead for how we can work with trust as a tool to sharpen the reflex of our own intuition and in this case, needs. As I write this I am realizing how trust is a good example of the shift from Masculine to Feminine and from victim to empowerment. We are learning to claim what we need and allow the space for it to occur, in place of taking action to “make it happen”. So how do we claim our needs while relating to others and have them shift in alignment, while still meeting their own needs? If we put trust in those places we think will not work and release trying to get things to work a certain way, they will. This is not an all or nothing process, it’s about “finesse”. For example a statement such as, "I prefer "X" and I trust that will come my way.” Then we let it go. If thought or frustrations surface around this need, keeping our focus on what we do indeed want is a good way to support the outcome. If we align with our needs, they too can align. We know relationships change. Can we now then define a relationship as; what the two or more involved agree upon? Experiencing this with my spouse has allowed us to define our own relationship based on each of our needs. An example of this is in 2006 my desire was to be able to leave our home to work a part time evening job and have my husband be able to flow into what needed to be completed. Over time I asked gently if he could look to see if there was wet laundry in the washer, to peek in the laundry hamper. Over time we’ve worked it where we flow together. This is an ideal for me while relating to another. I feel as if we both take ownership in our home life and this makes me feel supported. Is it perfect? No, at points it is but then a new preference appears and so I realign by asking for support in a new way. I choose them to release any frustration this has caused in the past (forgiveness, releasing myself from being a victim) and use my power of intention to visualize him supporting this new task. Sometimes the stakes are higher and remembering most people who act out are doing so based on outmoded beliefs, fear and/or shame. What they really want is to be freed from just these beliefs! So when you allow your needs to be met you are allowing them to align and have their own needs. What I’m saying here is when we meet our needs, we allow others to balance to alignment. Thus, we stop enabling them and allow them to grow and really be who they are. So, trust you today, choose your needs and literally make the world a better place!

"Disarray" This week's Energy Update

Sorry, this week is a little self-serving being that I know none of you have this problem! It may seem I'm about to write a spooky story based on the topic and while it is nearing Halloween, I find this problem haunts me year-round! How about you? It’s those piles that lurk in the kitchen, in the office and on my desk. These piles are not dust bunnies where there actually is a real chance of inherent danger from dust mites. These piles are the bills, forms from school, junk mail, etc. that seem to come in an endless stream. I just got a pink sheet home from school whose writing had a likeness to embossing which read "2nd FORM HOME". Do you think she was actually, making a reference to E.T. and meant to write 2nd Phone Home? One can only hope. The balance between the piles and the real are I want my focus need to be kept in perspective. However, when I don't, it comes down to DISARRAY! This is the word that came up for this week. Being a creative, I know clearing our space is an essential part of the creative process and if we are all creators, this is something we all have to face in order to make room for creation. Part of this creative force carries us day to day so we must have space cleared. BUT when it comes to piles and piles, what do we do? We can do several things. Pull two catalogs and call to unsubscribe. Clear one closet each week. It is almost the holidays, that sweater or child's toy you give away might make somebody very happy. Unsubscribe to 5 non-essential email newsletters, don't worry I know this one won't be included and if it is? Then I know you needed to do it! “Law of attract” more time. Tell yourself, "I have enough time." THEN.....and this is the most difficult part, GIVE YOURSELF THE TIME TO FUEL UP AND CREATE! Focus people! Let the piles that keep coming in have less focus. If we live it, it will change into what we want. This topic is one dipped in shame for me, a big bug-a-boo in my life! I hope it serves you as a reminder to let go. Even if the teacher sends a madly written 2nd notice, you can recognize you were focusing on what you want and that is an okay reason for a second notice!

Newsletter Post "Risk"

When I asked the Universe what this week's theme was for the newsletter, the word which came up was "Risk". No, not "Rick" the boy I dated who began with an "rrrrrr" and ended in an "ick"-not him. RISK! I think it is a good topic because right away it seemed to make me feel uncomfortable! Here's what I came up while feeling out "risk". Where do we find the sweet spot inside? Where does risk encourage us greater than fear that can hold us back, even debilitate us? Some time ago I read, "In order to make it in your career, you need to be around those who are making it." I think this sounds great but FEAR always won out for me. Why would they want to know me? What do I have to offer them? (I know you can all recognize these questions I've asked above as the beliefs which sabotage us). What I am realizing is that if you step into the risk, you'll know if they're the ones as you start to get to know them. Those "ones" may change and shift but its you who has your hand at the helm. You choose how you frame it and honestly how these people or this situation fits. In life we need mentors, examples of the person we wish to grow to be. The hardest beliefs may come in the form of "I'm just not ready." If this is the case, set a timeline or goal so you stick with the original plan. Or just jump in and forget about being "ready". Watch Good Will Hunting to bolster your power in "being ready". Even if you end up on a road that seems totally wrong, I guarantee if you keep putting yourself in the way of risk, you'll bump around until you find your people, your support, your YOU. Sometimes the beauty of bumping around is that you get tidbits of goodness, information and growth that in hindsight are priceless!

Band Aids

I was asked to write an article which was published in 2011. The theme of that article came up in a reading this last weekend at the Hudson Holistic event. I feel it is a good theme for the week, giving example to; sometimes what we judge as an error is actually something working in our favor. Several years back I was in New York at a convention. The floor was marble, the ceilings high and I was many miles from my home which sits across the street from a lovely farm. I was packed tight in a city and I wanted to dress the part, so of course I wore the really pretty looking red pumps and I walked and walked. I'm sure you know what's coming! Yes, I had to peek in on the home design show in the lower level, even though that had nothing to do with the show I was attending. While walking past lovely staged scenes of the worlds top bathrooms, it felt like my feet all of a sudden broke. I knew it was time to move away from the $10,000 sink from Portugal and return back to my show. I stood there in too much pain to move and prayed for my need of two band aids to ease the sheer terror that was my feet. I was otherwise in a joyful state, surrounded by abounding beauty and magical people around each corner. I was in my element! So I walked back through the well proportioned lobby and what do I see on the floor? Yes, two band aids. However, I am Minnesotan through and through so I walked past the band aids acting as if they band aids saw me and were already talking about me. I said in my head, "those aren't my band aids." But as my feet creaked forward I just knew I needed the help. I wouldn't make it to the service stand where they were sure to tell me I had to walk another mile to get to the first aid stand. I stopped and thought a second, then I went back for the band aids. I remember feeling like a thief. It was as though 1,000 eyes were on me. When thinking back I am certain there were maybe 5 people in a lobby that could hold 18,000. My mind racing, my feet almost grateful but in waiting. I had to find the key to have this instantaneous manifestation. I had to see it as okay, if not by human standards, spiritually. Right then it dawned on me. What if whoever lost those band aids was shy? What if they came back for them, couldn't find them and had to ask another person for help? What if this was a chance for them to overcome a little fear? This could help them grow. This experience was certainly growing my trust in asking for my needs! My taking their band aids was now noble! Perhaps I was a spiritual hero of sorts, maybe my guides at that very moment were sticking a gold star on my "growth" chart? Wait a minute.....I am a creative and this is getting out of hand but I had fun taking it there! I've embellished a bit for both of our pleasure but I feel this illustrates a good point. Discernment! This is the key. When we know without a doubt it is meant for us, even if we can't prove it or others can't understand. Go with it! When you ask, trust what the Universe is bringing to you, is in your best interest. I manifest things very rapidly when I can feel I'm on the right path in life or when I am honest in the expression of my feelings. What does it all mean? Getting what you REALLY need may be giving somebody else what they need and being true to your own needs and self IS the right path!

Follow yourself, listen to your intuition

"Become the psychic you've dreamed you could be!" "Be your best today at exactly what you want to do!" "Don't wait, we have the way for you to heal your life!" We've all heard or read these types of pitches many places. I say GO WITH YOUR GUT! Brene Brown challenges this very idea that the crux of our identity is wrapped up or shall I say exposed in our shame and our ability to be vulnerable. Then a happen chance conversation with two women-who can listen-reinforced this concept. I've always wondered how we can maintain the feeling of inspiration after we've left a great conference, seminar or interaction that filled us up. I now know. In those moments we got to feel connected and vulnerable (because we felt safe or took a risk and it worked out). Our heart only knows how to operate this way. When we step back into parts of the myth, our heart experiences resistance and voila! We struggle to let go of energies or negativity that doesn't serve us. I am hearing it loud and clear from the heavens, follow you and only you, you know what is best for you! I do realize what I am saying right here is sharing a message that says, "You don't need a reading, you need to trust you." I also am no fool and understand that when I read for others my intent is to empower you, so you don't have to follow a fad, you return to following you in all your magnificence. If life seems confusing to you, ask for answers from your inner guidance. Ask the Universe to help, to give you ques to support your journey. We are not alone and we can find a common ground which unites us. I've thrown my hat in the ring to speak out of state. Please send intention that this broad broadens!

The Messenger in my life

"Well," Scratching my head, "it took me long enough!" This image is my cat. My second time I've had him. He didn't run away or get lost and return. He died and came back. It has taken me so long to understand it. When I was a child I had a black cat named Rascal. He was great, he loved me and was my best friend....even though he was a cat, not a dog. He died when he was 9 years old. Strikingly, I believe that is the number of completion! Then a half decade ago we fostered a mama cat who was a stripped short hair and not striking at all! She bore some beautiful kittens. Two were fluffy with the softest fur and great coloring. Two were short hairs like her and had nice markings as well. One of them was black on top and white on the bottom with a little blacky ink mark against his stunningly white fur on his back leg. I named him smudge and I knew we needed to keep that kitty with us. However, I didn't know why. A friend mentioned animals returning to be with us again in the same life. I thought about this and when I looked at my own circuit of cats, it dawned on me that Rascal is Smudge. The more I sat with it, the more I could see this to be true. Rascal died with this sore in his mouth and just where he had that sore, smudge has a black spot in his mouth. Rascal had a funny thing with his tail, so did Smudge, upon birth. So I accepted the possibility of Smudge being Rascal and Rascal being Smudge. One day it dawned on me that Rascal was all black with a little white on his throat. As a child I said what I thought to people and they seemed to listen, I had a little power with my voice. Now Smudge's under carriage is all white and he is bathed in black on top dripping down like chocolate. He is masked by the black. So this begs the question. Once Smudge releases from this life, what will he take with him? I think Rascal took a lot of my personal injuries with him. I believe he kept me healthy and made sacrifice for me through his own shortened life. Smudge is loving me a lot. He is dedicated to me and comes running when I call. Drama or love? Hard to tell, he is a cat! So what is to come? I suspect an improved version of Smudge and Rascal's legacy. I hope, in a sign that I've grown far, he'll come in a white variety? See, if we all tune into these things in our lives, WOW what we can find!!!

"Please, no photos" -Smudge

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If we only find community through tragedy we must find purpose through the tragedy to find community outside of tragedy

I was thinking about how humans are a bit more isolated than I feel is healthy for us. Then I thought about that in contrast to a tragedy in our culture. When I pair the two what I come up with is we come together when there is a tragedy. We begin to be honest about needing each other, we know how to help another person without having to ask how. Spiritually this teaches us a few things. Is the tragedy occurring in response to our lack of connectedness? I'd define this as the people who commit the act are feeling unloved, they don't actually feel connected. They could be living a life which appears highly fulfilling on the outside but is not so on the inside. We have become afraid to express ourselves emotionally and this is an obstacle to finding support in the void of going through the motions of life vs. living life. So to me searching for "what is wrong with this person." This statement will grow more and more confusing with each passing tragedy. Why? Because it is fulfiling our manifestation that there is a pattern in them, not us. It is the pattern in us that we need to examine, not the alleged perpetrator. Secondly, we are silently asking for love. Each of us is. You think back to 911 and what America became for a few days. We helped each other, we didn't have airplanes flying overhead. The world suspended, we were quieter, in shock yes but also awe. My heart was overturned but in time that made fodder for new growth. It feels hurtful to know people were lost in these tragedies. That feels hurtful and wrong. It is not in our nature to hurt each other, or is it? We can turn to what sells in America, violence sells and the stakes are pretty high right now with the level of violence shown even in a preview. When we ask for more violence, in media and movies, etc. Then we can't wonder why more has come in reality. If we do, I think we are a little misguided. I spoke today with somebody about "Gun Control" even that is a silly notion. The more we control guns the more violence and resistance will shift into being. We need to stop looking to the government as the parent and stay in that connected to our neighbor space that serves us and them. I vote for connection! Do you? Amy

Can you live inside this story anymore?

As I've been driving around the city these past days I can't help but look at billboards and want to cry. I can't live inside this story anymore. This is a story about lies about fake, fakey, fake! I have started defining it as the "lies" and prayed in gratitude that my husband can live in the lie and take it or leave it. I can't do that which makes me feel weak. However, today I took back my power on this front. I signed up for an email system. The said they make it really easy! They shared it is so important for an email to be free of jargin or defined so everybody can understand it. I looked at their videos and went deeper for direction. Their direction was FULL of jargin. HA! I emailed the young associate who told me "his design team would help me." Ha! I haven't heard back from him. I wrote in my email that this advice about loosing jargin has been lost on them. I told him it made me laugh. I love laughing at the absurd! What a joy. This is a bad parent in the making, this company. Yes, I can embrace the irony of my shadow right here! The point is, be straight with people because that will make this story change and I can't wait until the mainstream story is Cancer has a cure, you are supported and loved and you can have it and know it now. Because this story is true now and I hope everybody knows this story in the coming years! I'm hosting an emotional release workshop in June, this is not to be missed and only 5 people can participate! Register as soon as you see the class info come out! Love to everybody, even the email guy and "his design team".

In the end the story changes

There is a myth in my family. A myth about who we become in the minds of those left behind when we die. My family makes people bigger than life because there is a little liar in each person in my family, a desire to embellish or make it bigger than it is. It is subtle because I was raised by the smart judgmentals. This was a recipe for solid growth for me. So I decided to think about what would happen if I passed away. From the mother who now tells me, "It is difficult to love you because I know too much about you." Or purposely rejects me when I am in my darkest moments. As much as this sounds like "ouchy" material it is the perfect way for me to feel separation which is what I believe we are here to experience so we can come back to the oneness. She is just playing a role to establish these feelings of rejection and ultimately separation. So I manifest a life that is about "I will never be enough, I am inherently wrong and that no matter what I do, in the eyes of my family, a burden and malicious." So I take this thought about what I've said above and pair it with the passing of my father. Watching the deck of cards shuffle and be dealt. Two people got jokers and they aren't happy. Two people didn't care what hand they were dealt, one retreated and one jumped in to steer the ship. Each noble choices. One sat atop the experience pointing like the highest of the highs, crying when it was appropriate and making all the right moves on the chess board to protect oneself as this one holds the most power on that board. So in my Eulogy, hopeful it is spoken from the heart but in the event it is spoken from the mind, I can bet the words will unfold from this quote from me: "My life is made into great lore from the eyes of my family." All I can really claim is, life is about perception, my perception is I would have signed up for this and I would again. This is living in odd wrapping.

Resistance creates friction, friction creates heat

Yep, the topic is global warming. The place is Earth. This energy experience, meaning Earth, is a place where the law is contrast. The answer is always in the contrast. The law of attraction is about contrast. So if we go back to the ice age, we had dinosaurs, animals who roamed the earth and had low functioning brains. It is possible our current depiction of dinosaurs is off a bit? What if dinosaurs had ipods, meaning they used their intuition to make movement through their lives. Thus, they never separated from their alignment. So if we blast forward to today. The contrast is the age of heat? Why would this be? The human brain has become quite savvy. However, many of us have separated from our alignment with our truth, relying on free-will. Because of this we judge others and ourselves~harshly. This creates resistance and the result is friction which interestingly creates heat. I have no solutions, just an observation I wanted to point out. My speculations center around; we need to ditch free-will, we will all heal and have space for everybody if we stop the resistance and see ourselves and others for the divine beings they and we truly are. Are you going to keep letting fear and resistance stand in your way?